I've been feeling empty inside. Feels like im missing a quarter of my life. I wanted to do things with my family but i dont know where to start and what to do. There is something that my soul and body needs to fulfill. I feel it yet im in doubt if its my insecurities or my anxiety is attacking me. I need to forgive and be forgiven. Im not sure if my hubby will support me too. Well, there is this one dream, one thing that im hoping to do without compromising the feelings of my other half. I wanted to replaced the old unwanted happenings that happened in the past or i rather say to make a new memories of our family in an island adventure that once my hubby done too but not with us. I want to go in that place where we can make up and start our forever. Where there is clear and clean sea water to flush away all those bad decisions we made in the past. That only our family being together can put on good memories and how it feels to be in that special place in our own setting. I just badly need to replenish my soul, mind and body by the quite nature and sea breeze. I been over fatigue and my body is weary. Im just not voicing it out and complaining but i feel too tired mentally and physically. I also have to do it for my hubby's sake. I want him to relax after hardwork. Have some quite time away from his work load. Make our life balanced. I want to give him good memories with kids and make new plans for our future. I want to make peace with the past and forget all the bad memories and throw away all the pain that is still lingering inside me. This is necessary for us to totally moved on and closed those rotten door that could have tear down our wonderful family. I want to have this vacation for us, new beginning and inspiration. Closing doors of the past and never to be open again. I want to feel how great it is to have each other together. Feeling grateful and thankful for all the blessings and trials in our family life. Realizing each others worth in our life. One cant live without the other and thats our partnership in this life. Our solemn swear to take care of each other no matter what life throws on us. Together we can make it. Never give up!
