Tired but fulfilled..

Having a cup of coffee while resting after a hard work. Today i made my perfume scents a total of 30 bottles in 250ml each. It took me a whole day to finish all the work..and now Im chillin' it for a week. Next sunday i will be busy again. My back and shoulder aches right now but Im glad Im done with all the mixing. We'll just wait for the perfume to be cooked. Im thankful that my brother lhon help me with the mixing. I wish my hubby is here to give me some massage.. i really missed him. That's all for now! Just trying to update my blog! God bless you all! Have a nice day...c",)

In to business..

Its been a while and i missed writing my thoughts. Just as now that i been busy with my new business venture i would like to take a little off with my precious time. Since yesterday, i started my Perfumery i felt luck will be pouring in sometime this year.. i wish and pray that it would be a success for my kids and family. I want to help some of my friends too if they want to engage in this business. but there's one thing that bothers me now.. the quality of my perfume scents, will it be accepted by my customers and buyers too. Will it be appreciated? I worry about it. I want to progress and master this mixing technique of my scents more. I need to experiment more and be guided by the comments and praises if there will be. Im open to it wholeheartedly. Now that my husband is far from me, i cant completely carry-on with my daily task and i wonder if i can be responsible enough to run this business. Crossing my fingers and hoping for the best in God's grace.

God bless you all! Have a nice day...c",)

Thoughts of the day!

I wish Life to be just as simple as a child can see. Nothing is much more than a little fight nor big problem arises. When things gone wrong its easy to think and reconcile with some sweet candy and a tap on your head than argue with what you really know is not worthy of your precious time. Its better to play and be happy for a child. Maybe life is being complicated because we make it that way. We must decide for ourselves and not put faults on others. It is our own will and decision to make a good life. God bless you all! Have a nice day...c",)

False alarm..

Couldn't decide how to put this up. Well i get too excited to share my feelings, its a bit of taste like heaven for me.. You see for a very long time since we got married, its just now that he showed his happy heart with me and being proud of it. And it goes like this. Because i had been delayed for 4 days and its unusual based on my calendar. Im always on the mark.
So i thought I'd get preggy.. And Im a bit worried coz im not yet ready for it. Were unstable right now so it shouldn't really be on without planning. But since yesterday i had my period. It was a false alarm, my hubby had expected that... you know we could have another child perhaps a son this time. But sad to say it didnt happen.. When i told him that it was just a false alarm, he became a little frustrated coz he thought i will be pregnant, he was excited and looking forward to it. He even told about it to a friend. "Zannen datta ne wo tanoshimi nakunatta.." he said to me." But maybe later we could try at the right time, ok?" i answered back. Thats all! But im happy he had wanted another child.. That means im a capable mother to his children right?

Changes are part of our Life..

Carlos Barrios, from the Eagle Clan of the Mam Maya of Guatemala shares in regards to 2012: "The world will not end. It will be transformed... Everything will change...Change is accelerating now, and it will continue to accelerate...If the people of the earth can get to this 2012 date in good shape, without having destroyed too much of the Earth, we will rise to a new, higher level. But to get there we must transform enormously powerful forces that seek to block the way...Humanity will continue, but in a different way. Material structures will change. From this we will have the opportunity to be more human..." God bless you all! Have a nice day...c",)

Singing my heart...

Broken-hearted Girl

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And yes you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted
girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Ooooh
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

Ridiculed

Just this very moment been horified with what he just done to me in front of our children.. I was offended. Felt like thrown out from my position.. He just kicked me on my legs although it doesnt hurt that much physically but it hurt so deeply in my heart and hurt my pride.. Acting like that in front of the kids makes me feel more embarrassed. Just because we were playing on the bed and yuri bump her head a little and he makes it my fault, it wasn't that bad yuri was not supposed to cry when he punish her too on her lap. The kid got startled and cry.. It was an odd gesture of him. I couldnt get his point in there. So we left the room and leave him alone.. Maybe we were such a trouble that he cant concentrate on what he is reading.. If that's the case then why he didnt asked us to play else where.. He's like a lightning sharp and fast. His temper is so unpredictable.. I hate him so much! He always makes me feel embarrassed in front of others.. Treating me like a fool. Grrrr if only i could tell it to his face.. And if i can that would make a disaster. So better be off and call it a day! Time heal all wounds but the scars couldnt fade that easily. Praying for more strength and understanding.. Having an open mind needs a lot of hardwork and effort. I wont expect for his sorry its not his way. Im letting his pride eat him alive.. My anger gets me in this troubled night , wish i could just let it pass but i need this too, write what i feel and release what i have inside. Sorry for reading this kind of stuff on my blog. I just need some way to released the pain i felt inside my delicate heart! Will cry myself to sleep tonight.. Cant help the falling tears from my eyes... But i will bid you all "Goodnight."

What is the real meaning of your life?

You don't go to find meaning in life, you bring meaning to your life. Meaning isn't something out there waiting for you to discover. The meaning of your life is what you infuse it with - beauty or ugliness, happiness or sadness. It is totally your choice, and God wants it to be your choice because God gave you free will. God bless you all! Have a nice day...c",)

Appreciation..for my husband.

First of all A Happy fathers day although that was late for one day..but yesterday is the continuation of today. So, How do i put this on together.. Im not like a type of person who can speak my heart directly towards you. But i just want you to know that all this effort your showing me and making lot of changes in our daily life has been my inspiration to fight and strive harder to reach our goals in life. Although its tough i know that it will not be that hard coz i have you. My ever supportive husband, my teacher and my great adviser. I cant imagine life without you and i wouldnt want to think of that coming our way. I just want to appreciate and be happy on us today.. Tomorrow will take care of itself. We'll just cross the bridge when we get there. I hope you see through my heart more deeply, i hope you can be more sensitive on that part. I wish you help me bring out the best in me.. And in due time i can surely give back to you what you deserved for loving us and taking care of us your own family.. Thanks for the patience and sorry for all the trouble weve cause you and the worries i am giving you.. As much as possible i dont want to give you more burden, and i promise to do my part too. Im looking forward in the success of our marriage and that we can do this together in the name of love. I believe that no one can tear us apart if we truly, deeply, devoted ourselves for each other to love no one else but each other.

My family, is the meaning to my life.. they are the air that i breathe the reason for me to live and they are my inspiration. God bless you all! Have a nice day...c",)

Treasured moments...

 Our life can be meaningful! It depends on how we treasured our life each day and to whom we are spending it. Life for me can never be complete without my family, the thoughts and care we give each other... the love for each other. That is what i want to treasure most. I want to live my life to the fullest each day because we never know when our time will come.. Everyday is a blessing and its also our luck for we still wake up each day knowing were still alive and continue to give meaning to our life, sharing what we have and what we can give to others! Life is a one chance opportunity to love and be loved!

God bless you all! Have a nice day...c",)