Singing my heart...

Broken-hearted Girl

You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?

You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love enough to not forgive
And yes you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted
girl...No...No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl

Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would've walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day

I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl...No…No
No broken-hearted girl

Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Ooooh
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain't gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh

I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl

Ridiculed

Just this very moment been horified with what he just done to me in front of our children.. I was offended. Felt like thrown out from my position.. He just kicked me on my legs although it doesnt hurt that much physically but it hurt so deeply in my heart and hurt my pride.. Acting like that in front of the kids makes me feel more embarrassed. Just because we were playing on the bed and yuri bump her head a little and he makes it my fault, it wasn't that bad yuri was not supposed to cry when he punish her too on her lap. The kid got startled and cry.. It was an odd gesture of him. I couldnt get his point in there. So we left the room and leave him alone.. Maybe we were such a trouble that he cant concentrate on what he is reading.. If that's the case then why he didnt asked us to play else where.. He's like a lightning sharp and fast. His temper is so unpredictable.. I hate him so much! He always makes me feel embarrassed in front of others.. Treating me like a fool. Grrrr if only i could tell it to his face.. And if i can that would make a disaster. So better be off and call it a day! Time heal all wounds but the scars couldnt fade that easily. Praying for more strength and understanding.. Having an open mind needs a lot of hardwork and effort. I wont expect for his sorry its not his way. Im letting his pride eat him alive.. My anger gets me in this troubled night , wish i could just let it pass but i need this too, write what i feel and release what i have inside. Sorry for reading this kind of stuff on my blog. I just need some way to released the pain i felt inside my delicate heart! Will cry myself to sleep tonight.. Cant help the falling tears from my eyes... But i will bid you all "Goodnight."