God's Great deed..

Feeling the greatness of God thru the help of our friends, namely Mr.and Mrs.A.. They were an inspiration, giving us enough advised in running our relationship. Aside from their hospitality to share their home w/ us and being there always.. We feel so special that all i can think of now is that they were an angel sent by God to be our mirror and giving us reflection, they served to be our guide in this journey of our life. Its a wonderful coincidence for me. But maybe God planned it for us from the very start. Were meant to be friends for life. Im happy too that we had to meet people like them. And now i cant ask for more, God had given us everything we need and needing on the way. Mahal had his i-card already and visa was granted so soon. God made a miracle.. Prayer is truly a powerful weapon. Tomorrow i will be back home and Mahal is going to work in japan.. Our relationship from this coming days would be sweeter again.. Another thing is that we would be able to breath again on our own and with enough space. I'll be missing him but love is there to keep us closer no matter how far we are from each other. I love you mahal ko.. Keep safe and make our dreams come true! I trust in you.. But im worried who's around you without me by your side! Anyway, just keep my love w/ you and locked it in your heart then leave me the key so that no one can take it away, none but me!

Great family

I wish to have a great family. Like our new friend Mr. and Mrs.A;Their family relationship can be compared in a strong boat cruising in the stormy sea that no matter how big waves strikes the boat, it continues sailing to get accross the situation and when the storm passed this boat remained intact..Watching over the rainbow as it pass by. And continue sailing until it reach its goal.. Their family is really one of a kind, raising beautiful and smart kids is a tough job for a parent at this generation but i can say they had done it well 100%. And this couple loves each other so much that they cant live without each other. I guess that's the best part in the scene. Loves presence makes things work out and as long as its there everything can be made possible!! That's all... Oyasuminasai!

Turning point...

My relationship with my hubby made up its turning point... Great changes came up and that i care for so much right now. It starts when Mahal meet his new friend here in bicol... Mr.A. Someone who possessed a good heart and a very smart man. He stayed here with his filipina wife and children for almost 17 yrs now. Their life story made just like ours, from family's relationship and ours.. Seems to have so much in common. Mr.A is giving so much advised to Mahal and giving him so much realization on how it is to live and survive here in philippines. Its odd to find a couple like them who were so in coincedence to have same story as ours. Its really really odd and i still cant believe we got to find a kind of friendly people with so much spirit and enthusiasm. And for that were thankful to God and hoping for the best to continue our friendship with them. Since my hubby made a chit chat with Mr.A and his wife mahal's turning point came up and when we got home he seemed to be a changed man.. He wouldn't yell at me anymore when he gets mad and he's also trying to understand my side. He's not giving me heartache anymore. I love him more now.. God send us an angel through this 2 great couple. They were of so much help to us and been giving us more. I could only pray for them good relationship and healthy life always.

So much pain...

Cant help myself to struggle with my own feelings, Im in so much pain that i couldn't control all this emotions.. Getting worse day by day.. How can i empower myself towards self sacrifice. How can i react and practice my rights.. A certain person in my life whom i love with all my life gives me enough heartache, its where my anxiety begin.. He would always yell when he gets mad or whenever im wrong.. No matter how i want to understand him its me thats being misunderstood.. I dont want to keep anymore trouble so i would just keep my pains in silence.. Pretending that nothing is wrong and Im alright. Just dont want to bother more, it wont be good for us if i'd say it directly that he's the one making me ill. I just want him to be considerate of my feelings. And what i would be feeling.. and listen to what i would have to say. And stop arguing. It wont make any good on our relationship.. Life for me is so unfair, why should it be the one you cherished the most will be the one who would hurt you and give you so much pain. Maybe it would be more peaceful if i die. Or betteryet get lost in his sight. But how can i when i cant live without him. So i must bare with the coldness in his heart. Im a fool maybe but i guess thats part of truthful loving. Somehow i wonder if he truly loves me or just in need of my comfort. He's not even sweet, and theres no passing day that we wont argue.. Im getting tired and starting to feel weak. I wish there'd be changes, i only want us to be happy! In God's way i pray for salvation and peace! Give me strength Dear God to carry this cross you had given me.. I realized all my mistakes and asking for your forgiveness..