What if...

What if i am single..in a relationship..or perhaps complicated. Maybe its just a matter of status. A matter of love?! Or somehow securing future. I really dont know how to think and deal with this so-called status. For me as a mother and wife is a combination of happiness and sadness. Happy because i have my children whom i can witness to grow and give them guidance in the path of living righteousness. Happy i have a family to share and dedicate my life for it to be meaningful. And happy because i have a partner who can support me to make our family stay together and securing our future. Sadness when all these turn into a quarrel and without giving each other chance to practice our own right on the role that we should play. As parents were responsible in raising our children, for a mother i need to take care of my family emotionally giving them my best to be a good adviser being the light of our small family. I should be able to prepare their meals, attend when their sick, pray for our safety always and support my partner in any way. As a wife i should also be responsible to manage our expenses that my partner is providing for us. Living a wise lifestyle without making each other suffer either emotional, physical and mental. I would love to be the best on my role both as a wife and a mother to give my own family the best of life. I pray to God that in any difficulties thay we may encounter i hope that we can go through it by holding our hands together and praying as one for our brighter future. May God keep us all healthy and let us live together much much longer.. There's nothing i could ask for more.. Just living peacefully and happy with what God provides. Im satisfied!

Shocked! April 18, 2013

Feeling so shocked tonight bhel had been hit by a car on the highway. I feel so sorry and im still in shocked. I dont know what im gonna do if worse thing will happen. Now were here in a hospital nearby. Malaysia isnt really a safe country for pedestrians. We hope and pray that bhel will be okay and recover soon. It find out that there is no serious fractured or broken limbs. But still i cant sit still and be relax because it wasnt been 24hrs yet. The accident happen at 8:20 pm after our dinner. I dont know how to manage it an my feelings were mixing. I think im also going to have a panic attack but im fighting it. Bhel needed me on her side and i must take care of her now. Pls pray for her to be safe and recover soon. Huhuhu T_T

Wondering..(^_^)

Feeling of excitement, worries and fears , happiness, greatfulness and achievement for me and the kids we will be travelling to Penang Malaysia for the very first time. It is our first time as a family to travel abroad and so im feeling a bit nervous.. Got so many things to do and must be cautious all the time. Wondering if i could get some relaxation. Still a lot of memos to do... Bringing the kids along will be really tough i guess. So much worry and must always pay attention to them. I hope they wont get their tantrums. I wish they can cooperate during this travel. Sunday will be our big day, I'd be restless then. My luggages were all so heavy. Can i make it? I must be strong for this! Wish me luck!

Picture take!

Been loving to take a picture of my two lovely kids.. They're growing so fast and im afraid i would missed it so im taking every opportunity i had to record them. I feel blessed and probably the happiest mother on earth because i have them with me. I am able to witness their growth, i want to be a part of each step they take in order for them to reach their own goals and dreams. Me and my hubby will always be there for them no matter how foggy the road may be. I promised to protect and carry them with my own life. That's how much i value and love my kids. This is just a motherly moment so please dont blame me for being like this and feeling this way.

Thanks to all of you!