My thoughts of Mark..

    Never thought it would be this hard to part ways again with my love. It was On May 12 when he get back to Japan for his work. I really miss him now, but i know i should try to understand that his doing it for us too.. In keeping our family’s basic needs, he needs to be far from us and work hard. If only i could be with him there beside him to take care of him after his hard work..
    I realized now how hard his work is being done..doing those electrical circuitry and soldering aside from doing a report and other paper work.. well, got a little disappointment too because his salary doesn’t justify his job.. I mean its really not fair. Very hard work and very low salary.. My God, where is the justice in labor for working hard employees. So, i thought of helping him by going back to my work as a tour guide and i had discussed about it with him yet he said its not yet time because yuri is still little.. he wants me to take care of our baby personally. Maybe he’s also worried bout my health and safety at work. Well, i understand his reasons and cant complain anymore. i would just do my job here..Be a full time mom and a wife.
    Men sometimes are really hard to understand and Im also confused. Why would they want their wife to just stay at home and do nothing about working, and just taking care of the children? Maybe Mark would also let me work if yuri is not yet around. Well, maybe thats what his trying to point out to me. Maybe i could wait a little longer when Yuri grow up, maybe after a year. I hope Mark would let me work in the future.. We can discuss about time management then and some arrangement. It will work out. I want to strive for this family.. And i want to live our dreams coming true.. I hope Mark would stay here for good.. if he would put up their office branch in manila i would be able to help him in his paper work maybe.. lets say his own Personal Secretary.. that would be nice! And we wont be apart again.. Oh..i really dream of it.
    Anyway, for now i can only think of our good relationship this time.. no fighting and worries again. Im learning to trust him.. And i can see his doing his effort to not to make me doubt again.. and he also lower his temper a little when i go asking bout his sidelines (means other woman), as of now i cant see anyone is going to ruin us. We love each other much more now than before.. and he assures me of his true feelings too towards me and Marilyn. So i guess i should just really trust him and our relationship.. right? Im also thankful for his loyalty to this family and in taking care of us..especially when he consider giving allowance to my two brothers and mom..that was really touchy and my heart felt happy.. I love his other side and i know he also have a kind heart...strict but kind i can say!!!
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