Wondering thought...

    This fast few days my thoughts had gone wondering about my life.. i had come to realized many things in my life now and appreciate all my blessings. But i also had so many worries and complains especially when it comes to my children’s health. Like yesterday yuri had constipation, its hard to see her pushing hard and crying a lot just to relieve her discomfort. She was shaking and body trembling a lot with cold sweats. I was really worried and feeling sick myself. I wish i can take yuri’s pain away. I hurriedly call her health doctor and asked for an advice, after giving me the instruction i ask my brother lhon to buy the medicine as soon as he can. I cant take it any longer to see her in pain and crying. After 3 hrs of comforting her she made it then, the medicine took effect. Now i can breath easily.. I decided to stop her solid food intake as it maybe the reason on her constipation. Its much better to give her fresh fruits. Thats also her doctor’s advice. I mail on Mark and tell him about yuri’s condition. He was also worried, but i must not bother him much because he was working.. so i was doing my best to settle it, but deep inside i was really in panic and needed him beside us at this moment. I was thankful that my family is here to assist me and give support. It was really helpful, if i were alone i wouldn’t know what to do. Now yuri is doing fine and recovering. although last night i could hardly sleep because she still have a bit of pains and constipating.. Today she could move her vowel normally. Such a relief for me. And because i was so tired and stress out i didn't notice i had fallen to sleep for 15 minutes and it was a deep sleep. Maybe because i was really tired. I wouldn’t had waken if it wasn’t because of my brother jhing’s presence he said there’s no gas to cook our food for lunch, and that mama ask for money to buy gas. I felt a sudden ache of pain in my head and got annoyed. Why do some people lacks on consideration.. when im tired and in the middle of resting myself they would bother me. I mean my mom could have thought on buying our gas considering that i was sleeping she knows that later i would pay her. But why still bother me, this things happen always and i was always in patience. How many times do i have to suffer this kind of treatment.. Im only asking for a little consideration.
    Well, maybe some people  really dont realized it until they were told or someone teach them these manners. But i realized it later that maybe they dont really mean to ruin my resting time it was just a bad timing.. still i hope my family could learn to be more considerate and act responsibly with their actions.. Im speaking my self out and it was just for my self pity. i have nothing against my family. They are equally as important as my own family. I love them all. Without them my life would be lacking and wont totally be happy. So, i wish that from this moment we could live our lives together in harmony.
    But then again i really missed Mark. I wish to give him comfort, care and my love. I want to support him all i can. Be the best wife for him, if Im qualified!? i hope he’s happy too with me and wishing that he is also wanting me beside him. But he is not showy when it comes to expressing his love for me. He’s not also that verbal to speak of sweetness and flowering words to please me. But he always say i love you mahal ko.. he he he that would be my compliment for the whole days work as a mother..That’s all! sorry for the long waiting on my blogs update, Im really, a busy mom...

God bless you all! Have a nice day...c",)