Meeting the Man of my life..Part I

    It was August 26, 2004 when i first step my feet in Japan.. my very first time to go out of the country, the farthest place I’ve ever been...Japan for me is my second home, because i had learn a lot about their culture and some of it i learn to adapt too. I admire their attitude towards work and their working hard. I had learn that most people here especially those who are employed in the company take a lot of their time at work, and most of the time they are lack in sleep.. most were have only 4 hrs or 2 hrs to rest and sleep.. always had to overtime.. Japanese are very much dedicated people towards their work.. it seems like its their life. And yes it is really their life i guess more than their family.. i might be wrong but that's how i analyze their way of living. Disciplined people and respectable. But there are things that i don’t understand well about Japanese. Like why they spend more time at work than spending more time with their family.. And in a couple they are not that showy in expressing their feeling towards each other.. Japanese are strong in character, Maybe cold heart but kind people. Maybe its also in their culture unlike Filipinos we are showy and we express freely our feeling in any way. We are sweet, accommodated and hospitable.

    Well, enough with the culture. Now my first night at work was a little strange, maybe because I'm in japan or maybe because my surrounding is different now or was it the reality.. will i be okay here..? are the other girls will do fine with me? Well meeting other filipina’s here in Japan makes a little comfort because I'm not alone, the feeling of secured companions gives me relief. They are also friendly, and some veteran talents were of help. Teaching me how things work here.. find some of them to be my close friends. The work runs smoothly for three months until i become the number 1. At first i didn’t know about it. Because even if i got many points and exceeded my quota my salary is still fix. 500 dollar a month. minus the tax..couldn't do anything about it.. And it would only be given to us after finishing our contract for 6 months. We are given weekly allowance of 10000 yen plus the points. in one month i could get 100000 yen and some customers give us tips too, it depends on how much and how often can we get tip.. As for me i can have 20000 - 30000 yen for 1 month tip only. i could be able to send my family  in the Philippines  80000 - 100000 man yen monthly. half for their living and half for my savings in the bank. The rest is for my expenses here in Japan.. It wasn’t tough to live this kind of life but a little tiring because of the time, i got to work at night and sleep in daytime. After 3 months i got to learn to speak and communicate in nihonggo I been trying hard to learn and understand their language.

    Its October 2004 when i began to feel my heart opened and beat again for the second time around, since the first time i fell in love with was my daughter belle’s father.. my very first true love... Now same old feeling begun to come into my system, not exactly the same and i wasn’t that sure if it would persist. Cause my past had fail and its hard for me to compromised again, i got my trauma attacking me. But then i know that when i start to fall in love there’s no point returning and i couldn’t control my emotions. Because I'm very much naive in showing my feelings, i mean i don’t hesitate and i can say directly what i want with the person i love. His name is Mark, that's how he introduce himself to me when i first meet him at omise ( karaoke club). I was just a help then he didn’t request for me..at first glance my heart beats faster as if its trying to connect with him.. was it love at first sight? He was my type of guy. Prominent look, strong character, intelligent and mysterious. I want to be his girl that's what i had thought..I'm just making my fantasy in front of him.. but its working time so i got to do my job first and that is to entertain the customers. And he’s the customer of our club. First i introduce my self.. “ Konbanwa, honey desu hajimemashite.. Whats your name? Namae wa nandesuka? Can you speak English?”.. He replied, “ I'm Mark..” I thought at first it was his first time to go at our club, later i learn he had a request but by that time she wasn’t there maybe had comeback to Philippines. Well, the conversation continues after introducing  my self and prepared his drink i share with him some of my personal story.. i felt that i can trust him with my life although he’s a bit arrogant by that time.. i was trying to connect with him and open our paths for new beginning.. not instantly as boyfriend but even to be just my friend because I'm not aware of his status. I had to make sure of him first.. but my time was up and i still got many things to ask, 30 minutes only for a help..next to me was Sarah. He requested for Sarah then.. maybe he got bored with me. Or maybe he hates me teasing him. It wasn’t me that he want. Such a serious type of guy. Maybe i made him disappointed or was there a miscommunication? am i being misinterpreted.. well, maybe its not my night and he was not my fate. But i really like him. i wanted to spend more time talking with him. Only if he requested for me i could get to know him better. Maybe I'm not his type.. Well, i get back inside at the waiting area until someone will call me there... our work ends until 3 a.m. I'm so tired! Back in our apartment i couldn’t forget Mark..He really made a mark in my system, i had wish he’d comeback again and i can sit next to him again..The next time was i been Sarah's help and Sarah is my friend.. i make funny gestures just to entertain him while Sarah was busy with her other customer. Mark loves to sing so i made him sing and asked him to teach me Japanese song too. I'm very funny person, its just that I'm like a child playing with him. we talked of everything.. and everything but not below the belt..By that time he still didn’t open up about his personal status.. I was the one that's always on the talking..then Sarah come back..he wants me to join them so i was jonai shime.. At last got plenty of time to be with him. even though Sarah was there i still couldn’t help my self to fantasize him. i was vocal with my feelings, i let Sarah hear it too.. Sarah had a boyfriend and Mark is aware of it.. then Sarah told me Mark had a girlfriend in the Philippines.. i could hardly believe and my shoulder falls down, my enthusiasm suddenly fall. what a bad news! Well, maybe that's why he didn't request for me the first time because he was already taken and he was avoiding the situation.. that its better to request for Sarah because there wouldn’t be a chance for them both to go sailing in two rivers at the same time.. maybe that was the reason i thought. So i stopped from dreaming of him. The earlier the better...stop hoping for a chance to have a deeper relationship. But i was really attracted to him, so mysterious and that challenges me. 

    By that time even though i had stopped from him. I still wish he would me mine.. but in order to avoid him too.. I get myself a boyfriend of the thought that i could turn my heart to other man.. trying to find ways to love my boyfriend by that time.. Arits is the name of my first Japanese boyfriend, we are boyfriends with one sided love. its because i don't love him but he loves me. He was just an instrument for me to forget about what I'm feeling for Mark. Arits was my customer for 2 months and was trying to court me from the very first time he saw me.. At first he made all the girls sit with him and made interview.. every girl was just help for 30 minutes and he said he was looking for a prospect girlfriend. almost all the girls sit with him but he was choosy. Until i sit with him and introduce myself.. He can speak a little Tagalog and i find it funny.. maybe he enjoys my laughing. After 1 month i answer his wish to be my boyfriend.. i take advantage of the situation in order to forget about Mark and avoid his presence everytime he come to omise. Mark comes to omise only once a week sometimes twice together with other friends.

    My birthday is in middle of November, at that time it was Sarah’s day-off. To my surprise Mark came and requested for me. After a month we got this first chance to talk seriously together and we talk about his status too. About her girlfriend in the Philippines that their relationship is getting cloudy and he wasn’t sure of his feelings anymore about her.. he shared just a little detail about her. where he met her and how,  her name and age and he told me she’s from Cebu 27 yrs old. And said he was sending her to school. They communicate through text..i told him i got a boyfriend too and he’s over there. i pointed him Aritz. He said Goodluck! And i answered him “ but your my type..” I'm starting to fancy again for him.. If there would only be a chance..but he already had a girlfriend. He should break up with her first before i can give my heart totally.. Yes! that's my decision...This night was one of my most memorable moment.. Are we fated to be together.. It was really a surprise, and i love surprises! Well until here for a moment.. until next chapter..time to park my fingers its been a long story...to be continue...

God bless you all!

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