Keeping the love alive

Finally, my heart jumps in happiness. I could finally loose my tension slowly now that the king of my heart is returning to what we were before. Im drowning in this feeling of intense love and care he is showing me. Truly action speaks louder than words. I just cant get enough of his everyday gesture in showing how he cant live without my love and care too. I feel like we are lovers again..
Thank you Lord for answering my  prayers. Truly you listen to the prayer of righteous. I know that you will never forsake me because i am your child. My faith is deeper in your promised. I feel grateful for slowly making his heart and mind clearer against immoral acts. Im thankful that he is choosing to do what is right and follow his heart. Im thankful that he gets his realization right on time. Its your perfect timing. All this troubles were going through on our basic needs were just minor problems that makes us grow stronger in faith with each other. Together we are facing the same direction. We are working on our long term goal.. Keeping everyone in our small family happy and enjoy what we have.
I thank you my loving husband for showing me that there is light at the end of darkness. The rainbow comes after the storm. Let us always be thankful and grateful to God for giving our marriage a chance and for providing our every needs. Im contented in whatever you can give us.. Im not asking for more. You are enough for me and our kids. I love you my dear husband, my forever partner and my other half. My life is not complete without you. I promise to be by your side no matter how old we get and when you're weak i will be your strength. I will take care of you just like how you are taking care of us right now. May God blessed you wisdom and knowledge in every decision you will make. Continue to be good and you'll be rewarded in no time. Its God's promised.

Unspoken

There's so many things i want to say. Words that are left unsaid because of fear of being misunderstood and rejection. But its difficult to sustain the feeling of wanting to be heard. Despite all the worry and anxiety i feel the need to write it down. Somehow i want to share with you who can relate to my deepest emotion. If where on the same boat, i hope we can both find the courage to express ourselves. Here goes my situation... Being an open minded person i easily forgive and forget all the bad things that happen and how someone treated me unjustly. I mean treated me not fairly. Sometimes i feel my kindness is being abused. And it hurts the most when that someone who does is the person whom you give your whole life and trust with all your heart. When all the while i thought he is being honest and being a good person doing his responsibilities well but in between those mixed feelings and gestures he is showing me theres still this gap of unpleasant and sometimes can be disappointing because i felt disrespected. And that my existence doesn't seem to matter. I feel out of his decisions specially when it comes to financial matters. He would make decisions and tell me just after and my rights to our supposed to be deciding in partnership manner is being act by him solely. Its just not right and i cant fully appreciate that seemed like being honest manner but its already a late reply on me. Its like he is not giving me a chance to agree or disagree, its all on his. I dont feel like a partner in his life.😢😩 The saddest part of being kind and understanding always. I feel like im just his ego bouncing hard drive. Where he keeps all his sentiments and lifes difficult moments. But i dont complain to be the one to catch all of those. Despite the situation, i honestly appreciate his effort in working things out, fixing the broken pieces that has been shattered. And his being open to me about his dealings with the past and ongoing trouble in our life, a threat in our marriage. I completely believe that he wants to make thing better for our family. And that he realized his faults. Maybe its true that love is blind. I just hope and i pray everyday of my life that he sees me deeper in the core of my heart. How i wanted to be treated with true love, care and understanding. And take me in his every decision he has to make that affects specially our marriage and our family. Hoping to achieved our long term goal. For better or for worst, till death do us apart. We stay together at each others arms. Only death can separate me from you. A promised i make in the name of our children. Forever i will love you my love.

Move-on

The healthy and right kind of love is when two people inspire and uplift each other to become their better selves. If it doesn't serve you its purpose, then its not right for you. Wake up and smell the coffee! Don't settle for minimal respect and effort. Why would you  suffer for someone who doesnt want to be with you? Recognise that we have the power to everything we give life to? If you would stop focusing on wanting love from this person, this agony will end. Stop hoping if he/she is in love with you, it's just hoping. Instead start going out with people who shows love to you and start making choices in that possible direction. Do more of what makes you happy and less of what puts you in misery. Give meaning to your choices. And soon you can recognise that love is something to want to, than for something that doesn't reciprocate. And you will give happiness to those who also ask for you in their life instead. That's 2 way then it will feel fun. Only settle for people who shows you love for who you are. Do things that makes you happy, do things you desire and let you shine through. You need to be beautiful inside out. Be big, bold & beautiful, and believe it. Because if you don't, people will think anything anyways. So just be! haha. If you think your life don't have enough of something, go do it or add it. Like love a furry pet, eat good food, if you enjoy cooking do more of it. So more of what makes you happy. Hang around friends who believe in you and uplift you. That's loving yourself. Don't hold the useless thought of 'WHY HE/SHE DONT LOVE ME'. That's not loving yourself, that's beating yourself up, for ~ that person who's not worth your effort to feel bad for. A lot of people need your love in this world... like...the poorer people. Give them more love, think more of them, and less of him. Haha!
Never get attach to something or someone. Coz' once it's taken away, you will be emotionally drained out. You need to love yourself. If u cannot even love yourself, how can someone else love you. You should also be happy with yourself for being what you are. No matter how you look. Coz' true beauty of a person is based on character, it's skin deep rooted in the core of our hearts. So don't chase or try too hard. Let it come naturally. The longer the wait, the sweeter it  will be. Be happy and stay strong and healthy. Someone is definitely waiting for that special someone (which is you). It probably is not the time yet. Exercise patience. Love is reciprocal in nature....you dont beg to love or to be loved, for whatever is obtained through begging has to be sustained with begging.....so stop chasing shadows!!...i know how it feels to love and not to be loved in return...life is too short to spend time around people who suck the happiness out from you....my advice is that you let go of that person, if he/she comes back his/she's yours, but if he/she doesn't then dont act desperate just know this person was never yours. Love is a conscious feeling two people embark in and strive to grow together in understanding, trust, empathy and commitment, always fighting to make the love work together. Anything besides that is desperation and its not healthy for you!!!

Here.. this same thing happened to a student of my aunt. She came to my aunt and said "teacher I can't study for this very important exam I'm facing because I'm in love. I can't stop thinking about him, sort of crazy.. but I need to pass this exam because this crush will go away but if I fail my exam I wont get it right ever again. Plus he has a girlfriend "

So my aunts advice to her was this. Every "likable" thing there is something to dislike.. every "not very likable " thing there is a side to it which is very likable. It's our responsibility to teach our brains how to see these two sides balanced and win life.. so now you need to see the problems of this crush..because it's never gonna happen between you two. Write down all the reasons why you should forget about him. Write this down and come meet me the next day.

So the girl went home and wrote about it.. she did this until she is satisfied and ultimately defeated that unnecessary pressure and even passed the exam with flying colors.

So write down why you need to stop chasing and hoping for someone who's never yours and why it is not practical. And just move-on.🤔

🤗😇 Goodluck and God bless you. Pray for strength in overcoming all that is not good and not healthy for you. Pull yourself together and be a better version of yourself.

That's all!
Have an awesome week 😀😀

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Marriage between a couple

A good marriage would be between a blind wife and a deaf husband... a wife who sees all the bad side of the husband vs a husband who hears all the negative things about his wife. To be happily married, the wife must first accept the husband's shortcomings and the husband should be patient with wife's shortfall. This is how me and my husband get through our 12 years of having each other. But in some cases no one is really sure of the future ahead of you. If you encounter an accident or sickness that can take your life short and leaved your partner eventually in this world. Its a natural separation. Inspite of this natural catastrophic events, there are also certain events that can be prevented, planning is the key to get a successful marriage. It also takes two to tango. Love is not all about feelings, it is a decision. It is natural that the spark we feel at the start will disappear as time goes by. That's where the decision play its role whether to pursue the relationship or end it up. The decision is yours. If your love was not strong enough to stand the test of time. If you want to break free then you should frankly tell the other person. Maybe he/she will be hurt but eventually they can move on. People are meant to fall in love, fall out of love & fall in love again until we meet someone meant for us or someone we want to spend the rest of our life. Be fair to him/her & to your very self. There's no easy way to break somebody's heart specially if he/she is a good person. But it is more painful to go on in a relationship where we can't be happy anymore. Maybe you need a break & find yourself. You can tell him/her about it & if he/she understand you he/she will let you go. Maybe you are burned out with your relationship. And don't you think this is not important because we are indeed struggling. Sometimes all we need in a relationship is a time apart. Who knows when we get back to each other we are a whole person again. Find a solution to your problem so both of you can move on. Be honest to yourself & to him/her. Marriage is a commitment. If you cant take full responsibility with your partner then maybe getting married is not an option for you. Its better to live single and its best that you cant be hurt and get anyone hurt right? But then again things to decide are different if it will involved the children in between your marriage.

Change is coming deep inside

So sweet love seemed that April morn, when first we kissed beside the thorn. So strangely sweet, it was not strange. We thought that love could never change. But u had changed the way you treated me before. How stupid i seemed to be. Crying silently in this dark alley. Wont u come and hold me tight tonight? Hug me from behind and kiss me passionately. Whisper in my ear the words i longed to hear you say everyday, for it gives me the will to live my life much longer so we can grow old together. How hopeless i feel to think that you would fulfill my wishes. It may be just my fantasy. You may not utter those words until my last breath. It gives me so much pain when you treat me cold as ice. Cant you feel this pain im feeling inside? Are you that insensitive of my needs? Time gets me tired... As it keeps on going and ticking the more i feel so damn wasted. If the shoe doesn't fit, must we change the foot? All i can say is that we must value each other even when time continue ticking. Our only security is our ability to change. Any change, even a change for the better, is always accompanied by drawbacks and discomforts.

Self-pity

I dont know why im feeling this way. Am i just being pathetic? But this feeling is killing me softly.. I dont want to argue about how im feeling anymore.. And im afraid to feel so much rejected. Im keeping all this pain of feeling unloved by the man i give my whole life with but i still choose to continue the journey beside him. Although he is here, present in body and in mind but his heart for me is nowhere to find he only gives his genuine love to our kids and it makes me feel unworthy to be his wife. I mean if he dont love me anymore why would he still keep me and suffer from the happiness he can get from someone he wanted to be with. Wouldn't he be wasting his time? I feel like im a burden in his shoulder that is pulling him from his own happiness.. And it makes me feel bad, i dont want to be the reason of someone's happiness to get ruin. I love him so much and im willing to do the sacrifice if thats what he would ask. Im not feeling really secured even if the love and care he is showing me is for real or just for the sake of our kids. I could hardly trust him again after his cheating, even if he is saying he is just being her friend now and nothing more, i still dont feel secured. He had done it once, and he can do it again if he wanted to. And i dont feel any assurance from him that he wont cheat on me again. He dont even reply on my words of love and adoration just to make me feel at ease and more secure. He seemed to be so cold and his heart is shut towards me. He is wearing a poker face. And it makes me feel more lonely, that im literally feeling cold all over my body. It affects my health and my sanity. I feel like im losing my self. That im dying inside little by little. All i need for as cure is his warm love, his true genuine love just like before. I missed him when we were true to each other.. When we both genuinely give our love for each other. My mind and body is suffering from this heart break trauma and his unknown emotional and psychological abuse towards me. He isnt aware that everything i wish to hear from him are the words that could help me go on with my life and would probably make me feel better. I hope and pray he would be sensitive enough to know my needs. Its his love thats all i ever wanted. I need to hear, to feel, and to see that genuine love from him. It will definitely bring back my life in this moment.

About Love

What is the one emotion that has everyone mystified? What is the one emotion that has started as many wars as it has ended? What emotion has had more plays, songs, and stories written about it than anything else?
It's called Love, that one emotion that makes enemies into friends and friends into enemies. So many legends surround this emotion, from the goddess Athena and Helen of Troy to Shakespeare's Romeo and Juliet.
Love comes in so many different levels, that it doesn't appear to be the same emotion at all, but it is. There is so much to love, that it will be hard to put into this simple essay. It can tear people apart and make us do irrational things to bringing together entire nations. What can this emotion not do? It's hard to tell, but there is a lot it can.
This emotion, bring tears to our eyes when something happens to our family members, friends, and even pets. When we feel love ripped from us, as in death or being spurned by another, we do things we wouldn't normally do, such as go on violent rampages, or mourn to the extent that our loved ones have to watch us constantly to make sure we don't try anything like suicide. Some can move on, always remembering the lost loved one after a while, but others can not let go. These are the ones that need our love and support the most.
There are so many levels to love, that I can only express a few of them here. These are the ones we see most in life. Friendship starts this list off. Yes, it doesn't seem like it, but we do feel love towards our friends, this is what helps us get along so well, and why we miss them when we don't see our friends for a long time. It's also why we hold certain friends over others no matter what happens. Sometimes, the bond between friends deepens to the point where a stronger bond of love is made, making them family.
Another level of love, are for our siblings and other family members. Even though we do things to our family members, and sometimes we don't like some of our family, that bond is still there. It's this family bond level of love that brought about the phrase, blood is thicker than water. We will do things for our brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, and children before we would even consider doing them for anyone else. Many wars have been started because of this family level, brother avenging brother or father, father protecting his wife and children, or even vice versa. This simple family bond can even extend to include our pets, amazingly enough, and that is a good thing.
A third level to love, is the bond that brings man and woman together. This level is among the strongest of them all. It is this level of love that has brought together kingdoms into nations in the past, and ended many great wars. It's is also for the love of a woman that has started a few of our well-known wars, like the Trojan Wars of ancient times. It's brought together families that have argued for years and years, such as in the Shakespearean play, Romeo and Juliet. Even though the two mentioned killed themselves in the end, it still brought their families together.
The last mentionable level of love is that bond between a mother and her children. There is no stronger, nor will there ever be. This bond starts from the very first tiny fluttering of movement and never ends, even after death of the child. A mother protects her children in the name of love, and directs them through life using it as the example to follow. Well, at least it should be. It's because of her children a mother will work at a job she hates, just to make sure they have everything they could ever want or need.
The phrase, love makes the world go round is very true. It's is our driving force, for what ever reason it may be. Poems, plays, and legends can only briefly touch the true meaning of love. We can only feel what that meaning is, and express it in ways only we can understand towards another. The true question we should be asking is not, what is life?, but what is love?
What is love? I don't know, but I'll do what I can to express it to my son, my husband, my family and friends, and to every single pet I have or ever will own in the best possible way that I can.
Lastly, love is life. Without it we cant live. If there is none we are then a walking dead. 😆😆😆😜🤗